WoW

Well people, I have just said a final fair well to the first mmorpg game I've ever played. World of Warcraft waved a sweet goodbye to my laptop just moments ago and I'm sure she's never coming back. I say goodbye to all my wonderful characters and amazing times I've had in that alternative cyber world. I cherish the memories over the short time period I played the game and all the achievements I've accomplished. I'm going to miss Brewfest and the children day thing. I'll miss questing and going into dungeons and pvping. I'll miss my kick ass raptor that took me forever to get. I'll miss dancing naked over Phil's body when she went afk. I'll miss killing rare creatures. I'll miss the druids. But most of all...I'll miss Mr. Chilly D:

And thus, ends a chapter of my life, Exxy's life. And I know decided on a new alias, B. It doesn't mean bitch, i'll tell you that right now. It's from a family guy clip; don't try to understand it.

~B~

They've Stuck With Me

I've been listening to old music and such and I just thought I'd make a post about the few songs that have stuck with me over the many years that I've started to listen to more varieties of genres than country. Funny eh? :P

Broken-Seether Featuring Amy Lee
This song has seemed to always stick with me and is an emotional heart string puller for me. I love the rythme, I love the vocals, I love everything about this song. It even sounds amazing live. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hqd2FJF8-h8&feature=related

Hero/Heroine-Boys Like Girls
I still listen to this song from time to time. I remember I use to kill my ears with this song, then again I always blarred my music back then.

Sorry-Buckcherry
Oh Buckcherry I just love your music. Especially this song. Even after I danced with a certain someone to it, I still love the song Sorry. But I think i mostly dedicated this song to my family life, but only certain parts; 0.0 only certain parts people!

December-Collective Soul
Oooohhhh this song was one I listened to a few times when my dad and mom were still together. It took me years but i found it again and I listen to it whenever I feel mellow. Its catchy and beautiful. Reminds me of the days when my parents were still together. Everytime I listen to it I can remember driving in that old white and black mazda, late night from visiting someone. Even the smells of that old car are still fresh with me. No one can really go back to those times, but this song helps me go back; even if its for a short period of four minutes and forty-eight seconds.

When Love and Hate Collide-Def Leppard
Alright, back when I was starting to become introduced to more types of music, Def Leppard was one of the few things I'd started on. And this song can also be related back to a very old story I wrote which is long gone and probably deleted. I did print out a copy but I lost that. It was my first eighty page story too. It was back when I use to write fanfictions about anime characters >.> yeah.... But it was between my OC and one certain character that Phil probably remembers...british :P

Not Ready to Make Nice-Dixie Chicks
After a while this band was one of the few country bands I listened to. I loved this song the most on that album I got for christmas because, once again it related to my home life. I was tired of trying to make nice with my dad and his girlfriend. I was an angry child back then and it's only been since last year that I'm starting to get along well with my dad and somewhat with his girlfriend...that's about eight..nine years? Yeah that's a pretty long time...Anyways this song helped me vent a little just by listening to it when I was visiting his place years ago. I think I'm ready to make nice now:P

Ride the Wings of Pestilence-From First to Last
I remember this song back in grade nine when Phil had introduced me to this band, I'm sure she did because I don't think I'd be able to find this band :| Anyways I remember in grade ten just randomly bursting into song on the way to the pizza place in our town. And I remember my many many MANY failed attempts and trying screamo out...sigh, good times..:P

All Black-Good Charlotte
I heard this song in grade nine and looked EVERYWHERE for this song, finally found out who sang it and bought the album. I can't remember who said it was whom's theme song, either Phil or myself.

Lips Of An Angel-Hinder
As always Phil was surely the first to hear this song and I was the second, what can i say I lived in a box most of my childhood:P. But I found out a few years later that my dad liked Hinder too. (As I said above I didn't have much of a great relationship with my dad for a few years but once in a while we'd get along) I can say that this song is the reason I have two of their albums now.

I'm Not Okay (I Promise)-My Chemical Romance
>:D one of the few handfuls of music I got into in high school. It started with Phil showing me a picture of the lead singer Gerard Way, and then me listening to Famous Last Word and I was hooked. I still have one of their albums on my phone and listen to them. But this one, out of a few others, is my favourite.

What Hurts the Most-Rascal Flatts
Rascal Flatts was the other country band I listened to when I was listening to Dixie Chicks. This song actually has a meaning that made me want to cry for a while listening to it. I dedicated this song to the first horse I had, Sally, the one I lost a few years later. She had lamintitis and a fever. She was sick and we didn't know exactly what was wrong with her. She was old too, so when she was put down I listened to this song and it seemed to fit well with the situation and for a while each time I heard this song I would start crying as I sang along.

Superbeast-Rob Zombie
My dad introduced me to Rob Zombie and he was also the artist that I used for my handmade stamp in grade nine.

And that's all of them really. These are the songs that stick with me, not just because they're good, but because a few have meaning and memories tied to them. Memories that I long forget about until I listen to that song and it all comes flooding back to me. Heck if I started listening to the Barbie girl song I'd get flashbacks of going to school in that old black and white mazda back in grade two, smell the rain, feel the chill, see the grey skies.

~Raven~

Fixed At Zero

Is an amazing song by VersaEmerge. Go check it out:P

Anyways that isn't what this post is about. I want to fucking put peanut butter on this oatmeal bar.... O.O

ANYWAYS! ahem, plan try and convince dad to let me get Shiloh Shepherd pup next year so he can go on great conquests with Raven and myself to out space to visit the muppets is under way. I've been sending him information on the breed and links...and breeder sites...yeah anything I can to give proof to how badly I want to get one. I want to get one so badly that I gave up WoW for good. Let's just say I couldn't seen to give up LoL but so far I haven't been playing it. What's the point in playing something when all you're gonna here is nagging whiners in the chat box as you try...and I emphasize 'try' here people; to play the game.

Even so I actually pretty much suck at the game and only seem to do something right under a fluke like situation. As for instances, one night with me as Ashe I got more kills than I had before and I think I scored a double kill...that was only because I was pissed beyond recognition.

So, you may say, why not just get pissed off before a game? Well it's not that easy to REALLY tick me off my rocker. It takes someone special to do that...

And I've gotten into trance music...and no Phil Cascada doesn't count...-_-

Let's get to the final point of this blog, only four more weeks before our two week summer break starts :D. Can't wait to see Raven and...Raven:P I'm going to have more time to visit people and I'll see if I can volunteer time back where I cooped last year so I don't fall out of practice.

Well that is all for the night, enjoy your night.

By the way peanut butter and Maple brown sugar oatmeal bars are phenominal together.

~Raven~

Starting to Wonder

Its me again, and i've got some shocking news (Not only for you all but for myself as well). I think I may be into the same gender :|....

Let's go over the evidence:

-whenever a guy walks near me I glare at them
-Just today two guys and I almost clashed when we were coming around the corner and I started swearing like a mother and got totally pissed off and started giving the evil eye
-I like guys but they just seem to freak me out and I get all weird around them


There are a few things, Panic At the Disco is distracting me now, but I'm starting to doubt myself :S.

Anyways that is all.

~Raven~

Important Notice (Time to Change)

The past few days I've been thinking, mostly about Shiloh Shepherds, but other things as well. Like, how the things from before are changing into something new. How the future seems to be here and full of new possibilites.

So I've decided to change my alias from Exxy to Raven. My World of Warcraft blog will no longer be active, and when my subscription for World of Warcraft is over I'm deleting the game from my computer. I'm discontinuing my playing of League of Legends too.

This'll probably be hard to get use to, the new nickname I mean, but I feel it's necessary in starting fresh.

So that's it I guess, we'll see what happens after this I guess.

~Raven~

The Bucket List

It seems like alot of people are making a bucket list, a list of things to do before the said person dies. So I decided to make a list of things I want to accomplish before I die. Seeing them as goals to achieve before it's too late. Because we all don't know when we're going to die.

1. own a shiloh shepherd
2. finish college
3. become great groomer
4. finally figure out the meaning of life
5. to feel real love
6. have four kids
7. to leave this earth still seeing countrysides
8. say something I never thought I'd say
9. live/visit Germany
10. Road trip with best buds

So what's you're bucket list?

~Exxy~

St. Patties

Now as you all may know it is, or was:P, St. Patrick's Day. A day in the year which I never knew about until today. But now that I know about this wonderful event I can't wait to be nineteen :D.

Since seeing as I am only eighteen I was only able to order virgin beverages when a group of us went to Jack Astor's then the cinema to see Rango, originally as planned it was Red Riding Hood but they didn't have it at that said cinema, before heading back by city bus to Residence where I am now typing this and struggling to complete a 15% assignment that is due tomorrow.

So I now leave you with one more thing to say, I freakin' love the taste of a pinia colada :D. Virgin that is:P.

~Exxy~

Exxy's Dreams

I've realized a dream of mine that has long since been stuck in my mind. I want to move to Germany. I want to live in Germany. I want to work as a Dog Groomer in Germany. All in all I really want to find my place in the world.

Since high school i've had Germany somewhere on the brain. I also had Japan and Korea on the brain back then too but I guess Germany stuck the longest. So, before I die, I want to earn the money and move there. It'll probably be hard to do and I'll probably miss everyone here in Canada, but I'm so dead set on this now. It hasn't left my mind all day. True it's some how to do with getting some distance from my parents, maybe visit Germany then decide after that.

Ugh money is the only thing killing my dream right now. So is school. I have to finish Animal Care before I can even think about leaving here. Along with paying off my loan and shit like that. Then I may just work for a year or so to accumulate the money to go.

Well that is all for the night, i mean morning. Jeeze I should fold my laundry and get to bed :|

~Exxy~

Finally Coming to a Close

The week is almost over, just one more day then I will be free to sleep, catch up on some reading, copy out notes and chillax for the weekend before monday's class.

I swear out of all the eight weeks i've been here this past week has been the busiest.

And I just realized that this is the first night I've actually had a real supper. I think one night I didn't even eat, another i ate early and there was that one night I just munched on trail mix.

I'm also physically exhausted, nevermind mentally. I even think i'm catching a cold. Oh and the fact that Sunday is my dad's birthday so I have to do something for that.

I hate being eighteen now :(

And I'm also thinking of a new nickname, Exxy's kind of old and like a high school thing. It's been with me for a few years now and I think its time for a few changes.


~Exxy~

Pain in the Ass Week

It's already half way into the week and I can't wait to have it end. Monday started with an amazing three minute presentation about the retina :D...PFFFHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA yeah right I fucking choked on that one, note to self never look at the crowd, sometimes you just don't want to see their expression while you speak.

Tuesday was easier but the night before I had to do something so our group could hand in our rough draft for a presentation i'm guessing in a month? Iunno, I don't care.

Anyways I was up til 2 am trying to start my presentation for Friday and ended up watching a Korean drama online. Don't knock it, its freakin' amazing.

So tonight I've got a paragraph of my hand out finished and i need to submit it tomorrow morning because I have class til 5 pm and that's the latest I can hand it in tomorrow. Blows donkey chunks doesn't it?

And I've learned something, I think i'm terrified of the opposite sex :| Whenever I walk by one I scrunch up against a wall almost so I don't brush them, I flip when one walks near me to. Phil if you want to know more txt, chat me up whatever and I'll explain that one to ya :|...oh yeah and when they talk to me I feel as if the brick wall just slammed down in front of my face. Fucked up really and truly. I'm a messed and unfixable girl, what can I say? :P

So that's all for tonight, better get back to my handout, thank god class doesn't start til 11 tomorrow, just have to make sure I wake up in time to get ready without having to rush out of the room >.<

~Exxy~

Reading Week

As the week comes to a close and I prepare myself to head back to my room at Sheridan I think about the fucking amazing week I had this week :D.

Let's start with Monday where I went to see Phil for a few hours, haven't seen her in person for so long.

Tuesday went with mom to the school and saw some of the teachers was cool, spent about half an hour in the guidance office with my old guidance councilor just talking. Pretty sweet.

Wednesday was a failed attempt at catching the cat to take him to the vet for a check up and rabies shot. Phil came out for a few hours and had the honour of sitting in the waiting room as I had my doctors appointment and found out what the hell has been going on with me as of late. Afterwards went back to my place and kicked some pixal ass on League of Legends >:D

Thursday took the cat to the vets before heading to the bookstore/scrapbooking store in town for a folding day. It's cooler than it sounds, trust me.

Then today I woke up at seven am, not unusually anymore for me since my class on Friday is at eight and I have to get up at six to be ready in time to make it to the other side of the school and across the little crossing into the next building, and got ready for the first riding lesson in a very very VERY long time. I fink i miss riding a lot :(... But after that I took the dogs back to our groomer to get them cleaned up so now Raven's a sexy lil boy and he damn well knows it. Sybil got a bath since she's a boston and i already did her nails and ears.

Tomorrow will be my last day before I have to head back Sunday at lunch. Not looking forward to it but I think this third time leaving won't be as hard, I think it'll get easier each time.

And that was my week so far, first reading week experience was busy, sore and fun. Can't wait for the next reading week :)

~Exxy~