Merry X-mas!

As the minutes toll by here around our snowy home I think back at all the other christmas' and how they were all full of joy and happiness.

But for some reason this year, I haven't been feeling the spirit of the big winter holiday. It's probably since I have a lot on my mind.

Anyways, as the clock strikes midnight I would like to wish all my readers and all the bloggers here a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

~Exxy~

2011

I was hoping to welcome you with a bang but I see that once again i'll be sitting in my room typing useless nothings to myself whilst wishing I'd made plans (aka had more party type friends) and were out doing something instead of sitting here.

But once again it wasn't meant to be, this B will be stuck alone, miserable and unpartied for yet another year.

I was invited to a party by my cousin up where my dad lives but I have no ride there and I don't think i'd travel three hours for a party, even if there will be certain beverages accountable>.>

You know what I'm gonna do something for 2012! And 2011's new years resolution will be to make more friends so when 2012 comes along i'll have friends to invite to party in the new year!

Yeah that's what i'll do, >:D

Anyways that is all, have a safe and happy New Years, a joyous Christmas or, if you're jewish, a wonderful Hanuka. Don't drink and drive and use protection ;)
Lol

~Exxy~

Soundtrack to my life Game

Here's another one I did:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press Play.
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the Next button.
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool.
7. Don’t skip songs.

Your soundtrack:
(1) Opening credits (Get Down-Everlast)
(2) Waking up (Cute Without The 'E' (Cut from the team)-Taking back Sunday)
(3) First day at school (Animal-Neon Trees)
(4) Fight song (Ashley-Escape The Fate)
(5) Breaking up (Sexy Chick-Akon)
(6) Happiness (All Good Things (Come To An End)-Nelly Furtado)
(7) Life’s okay (Black Rose-Trapt)
(8) Mental breakdown (Rooftops-Lostprophets) (Yes :D)
(9) Driving (Raining All The Time-Kill Hannah)
(10) Flashback (Dysfunctional Family-Cinema Bizarre) (lol)
(11) Getting back together (Tiger Lily-Matchbook Romance)
(12) Wedding (Trip-Hedley)
(13) Birth of a child (Worlds Away-From First to Last)
(14) Final battle (If Today was your last day-Nickelback)
(15) Death scene (Ready for a Fall-We Are The Ocean)
(16) Funeral song (Shiver-Shawn Desman)
(17) End credits (Mr. Immature-Stef Lang)
(18) When people are walking out of the theatre (DEAD-My Chemical Romance) (I likes it:P)

Comment, try it out and tell me what ya got; so far I like how my life's music is being played:P.

~Exxy~

Ones of Those Shuffle Music Question Things

Alright I'm bored so I surf google for some of those games that you play using your ipod/media player/mp3 player and the questions provided. I wanted to try it out so here it goes:
Directions:
1. Put your iPod, iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Nothing Good Has Happened Yet-We Are The Ocean

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Rewind-Pillar

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
If I Had You-Adam Lambert

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Give Me Anything- The Maine

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
My Obsession-Cinema Bizarre

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Sunsets and Carcrashes- The Spill Canvas

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Animal-Neon Trees

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
You and I Tonight-Faber Drive (0.0)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Russian Roulette-Rihanna

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Cut-Plumb

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
I almost told you that I loved you-Papa Roach (LOL OMG XD)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hate My Life-Theory of a Deadman

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Talk like That-The Presets

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Pedestrian is another word for speed bump-Abandon all Ships

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Dysfunctional Family-Cinema Bizarre

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Storm-Lifehouse

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Not an Angel-City Sleeps

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Running Up That Hill-Placebo

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Crash Into Me-Matthews Band

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Impossible-Shontelle

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS (IF IT’S A NOTE ON FACEBOOK)
Rude Boy-Rihanna

Well there you have it; and I must say I laughed pretty hard when i saw what I thought about my bestie:P

~Exxy~

I've Decided...

That whenever I think that a guy actually cares it's not going to be real. Guys are a confusing subject and I can never figure them out. Maybe they were never intended to be 'figured out'. Maybe I'm just not smart enough to see the true signs like normal people. Like my usual self; i just run away.

I hate over analysing everything, its dumb and in the end i just hurt worse than before.

"I open my eyes, it's only just a dream"

Right now, i'm just going to let it go with the flow; let love come to me. Then again that's not always worked for me...*cough*

"If you ever loved somebody put your hands up"

Well I'd like to say i've put my hands up more than a handful of times, and only a few of those hands actually went up in sync with mine.

Anyways I don't even know why i did this; bored probably. But enough of this sobby jabber, the moody Exxy will log off for another night.

~Exxy~

Ahhh...what to say, what to say.....

Well first of all I cut my finger on an orange box; no not a box that's orange...an actually box that holds and ships oranges for our daily consumption. So yeah I hate dem oranges now.

Lately I've been watching alot of old movies like Van Helsing, Brothers Grimm, Might Ducks 3...that sort of stuff.

Anyways this was really pointless to tell the truth, I have no real life..yet...well probably won't have one afterwards cuz knowing me when I get to college I'm probably going to hide in my room studying my brains out and trying to graduate so I can get a job to pay for my never ending addiction to WoW. I won't have a social life and I'll die alone with a dog by myside, having convinced myself that I don't need men because they're not worth it; they're confusing and you can't understand them.

So with that the insanely fucked up Exxy will be off.

~Exxy~

I've Come Down WIth Love...

For this song called Come Down With Love by Allstar Weekend. And while we're still on the topic of music I have been listening to a lot of oldies, stuff I listened to when I was years younger. And a few moments ago, while making a video of my CD collection, I found an Everlast CD. I don't know where it came from, probably from my dad's :S. Anyways I'm gonna go listen to it cuz it has one of my favourite songs on it. Just give me a second I'm going to go pop it into my laptop right now.....


Alright its in and quite an interesting first song....The White Boy is Back...yep that's the first song on the CD.

Anyways that's basically all I wanted to say really. So goodnight, goodmorning, good evening, good afternoon.

~Exxy~

Alright Everyone

Exxy needs help....




I want you to click this egg or whatever it turns out to be so my dragon egg hatches. It will die in seven days if not clicked enough:(. So if you don't want an egg to die go and click mah babe!!!

That is all.

~Exxy~

Inception

Inception: •origin: an event that is a beginning; a first part or stage of subsequent events
-wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn

This is the word of the blog. I think i'll start doing this to give me something to say whenever I take a peek at my blogs. Anyways Inception was the first word that popped up on google when I began to type in define. So I decided to use it. From here I want you to comment with a word you want defined. The first to comment is the word I use; maybe this will get me some comments. Lol just kidding I wanna just do this for the kicks:P.

So here is where it shall begin, are you willing to take the challenge?

~Exxy~

If We Hold On Together

Who all here remembers the movies The Land Before Time? If so who all remembers the song If We Hold On Together sung by Diana Ross. If not then look that song up now on youtube and listen to it. It may not make me bawl like a little baby but it sure does pull the heartstrings and so did those movies. They were amazing, and still are amazing, movies that I basically worship alone with Black Beauty. I feel bad for giving them away now that I've heard this song again.
It's been maybe over ten years since I've watched these movies, now I'm 18. Those movies were like childhood innocence to me. And hearing the song brings back all these feelings and memories I've been missing for so many years. I see how i've changed over the years and how much I wish I could go back and stay as a child with no worries and no cares.

As the song goes:
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

So hold on together people, hold on together.

~Exxy~

Hola Everybody

As the clock ticks on and the days grow short I count down the shortening days until January 8th.

I haven't been on here as of late but I will mention here and then go to my WoW blog that I have quit World of Warcraft for the time being. I just don't have the finances or time to play it and think it will be best if I just keep my account frozen until I reopen it and continue to play Exxy and Wrathy along with all those other small toons I played as whenever I was too bored to further my game with either tauren girls.

On other news I have set arrangements so I will be ready when I leave. I have dropped my second semester and my art class so i can focus more on my coop. So now i'm just doing one class per day til the end of Decemember when I won't be going back. I'll probably spend my winter break packing up again what I need and so on.

I've also decided I need one more final change before January and that is that I need to make myself look a little more mature. So i'm dying away my red-orange streaks and sticking to a plain dark brown colour.

Well since I'm feeling happy about how everythings turning out I would just like to say to everyone that reads these that Olive You. :) And in the following months after January if you don't hear from me I'm sorry, I'll try to put something up whenever I get the chance. But I finally feel like I'm really moving forward.

~Exxy~

WOOTNESS!!!!!:D:D:D:D:D:D

I am greatly happy to announce that I'm going to college this year! Yep in a few months I'll be moving out and going to Sheridan for Animal Care.

That's basically all i wanted to say.

:D



~Exxy~

Mr. Immature

Get out, no, no get out....gtfo.

Just kidding get back here you loveable little teddy bears :D I love you guys! What would I do without you reading my posts? Eh Philly? ;).

Anyways in four days I'll be having my very first experience....going to a concert! Yep I got invited to go with someone to a Hedley concert and it's this friday. Should be freakin' sweet since I like the band. hard to find friends that like them>.> COUGHphilCOUGH, but I can deal:P.

Yesterday Heartland returned with the most amazing season four episode ever, Ty is back and he brought along a little friend of his who was a girl! She says she has a boyfriend but you never see the guy the whole episode, but no fears he exists and Ty is still with Amy. Sigh i love Heartland.

Well that's about it for today, half an hour left before going home; stupid spare.

~Exxy~

Colleges

Here I am sitting on my bed, ten DVDs scattered around me from my less than exciting movie watching of X men, Inuyasha and Rave Master. Yes I'm an anime nerd:P. Anyways today's topic is colleges. I've applied to two colleges this year and I decided to look into another college to see if it also has the program I'm looking for. So far no such luck. But really why can't more colleges have animal programs. They all have the other programs that people love but for the animal savvy people it's a pain in the ass just to find a college close enough with Animal Car, Vet Tech, Vet Assistant, or any other. Like there's only one campus in Ontario that has an Equine program.

But I can't go to that program since it's to far away and I don't have the expenses to live there since I don't think they have rez. So there's my little shpeel for the day.

~Exxy~

Wildlife Park 2

Finally, after a painful day of searching the web for a site I could buy it off of safely and of course a whole painful day of downloading the first game Wildlife Park 2 I've finally begun installing it. Now all I have to do is download the other product I bought, Wildlife Park 2: Horses; basically an addon to the game. So yeah, i've been here all day trying to download the games. And yes I bought them, i didn't steal them.

But yea just thought I'd bring that us here, tell you how my boring day went:P Well besides going to coop which was awesome! :D


~Exxy~

Yo

Ugh i'm so sick, bleh. I've had this cold since Saturday and it won't go away! T.T

So what's up muchachos? Well its my third week back at school and well ya as I said before I have a cold. But I start my placement tomorrow so I hope my cold is gone by then seeing as I've been medicating my throat with Halls and any other Vitamin C induced cough drop along with hot food and well as much sleep as I can possible get around here.

You know a week ago I would be saying I want to drop out and just wait for the letters to come then take it from there but you know. It's the third week and I seem better; more relaxed. I'm finding a new group of friends to hang out with all the time and basically I'm becoming more dependant than I was before.

So i don't think there is alot going on since I haven't been here for a long time but I thought maybe speak a little to the tiny (and when I mean tiny i mean one person) group that reads this. So thank you Phil for being my only Loyal Fan :D.

Anyways I'm thinking of if I should make another Vlog on Youtube. But I don't get many comments, if any at all. And I even talked about Twilight, at least I could have gotten some Hard Core Twifan bitching me out or agreeing with me, I'd go with the first bit since I don't think I said really great things about Twilight. Am I that bad? T.T

So, until later when someone worth while happens.

~Exxy~

Rockstars and Spares

Today was as ordinary as it could ever be. I woke up at 6:30 am, hit the snooze button and went back to sleep. Woke up at 7:00 am, got up. I took Rave out for his morning break and then got ready for school starting with my straightner being turned to the maximum and me running around the house trying to find a pair of clean pants. Once they were found I flipped my radio on, nothing good was on in the morning so i grabbed my phone and blarred the small selection of music I have on it. Straightened my curly hair, applied fresh liner and checked my hair over with the straightner before getting dressed and flipping the lights off.
I got to school via bus and started the day off in my coop class. I basically wasted two hours and seventy-five minutes doing absolutely nothing; mostly waiting for an interview. I doodled a bit, began a new story, slept a bit. Then the bell rang.
I had lunch, hung out with friends, the usual for a lunch hour. When lunch ended I headed up to my last class; Art.
Now in art I worked on my graphic design logo thingy, then doodled my graphic design for my portfolio before staring at the clock for half an hour. NOthing really to do or wanted to do. For fifteen minutes of that half hour I took the black pen that my teacher let me borrow and traced my final draft for my portoflio; looks cool by the way.
After Art I called home to get a pick up since I had a spare and was completely bored; nothing new there people. Got picked up went shopping and bought two Rockstar energy drinks. I began drinking on at 2:30 pm then picked up brother a few minutes later. Continued drinking the beverage while eating melon on the way home.
When I was home I finished my drink at 3:40 pm and was hyper so i made a vlog. Going to drink the other drink sometime later one.
Then for the rest of the night up until now i've been surfing the web, talking to people and playing online and pc games.

So there you have it, a day in the life of Exxy.

~Exxy~

A Boring Day

Well I haven't had much to blog about lately. Who knew school would be so boring? Well I got my Vlogs up and running again with two new ones last night, I have another long one ready to go but I just haven't gotten around to putting it up on YOutube. So look out for that boring filled video.

Anyways I have a mega headache that's dull enough not to make me scream yet intense enough to annoy me.

~Exxy~

Laptop

Well everyone ol' clunker has officially been retired. That's right, I've got a laptop now. So clunker's going to have anything I want taken off of him and put onto my new computer. And as a strong, hardcore WoWer I am, the first thing I did was start installing WoW on my new beauty. And the first question I asked the guy at the store was if WoW could be played on it.

Anyways just thought I should make some type of update for ya people.

~Exxy~

Back to school

IT FEELS LIKE THE FIRST TIME!!!!

alright now that that's out of my system I'm just blogging to tell you all that I'm back in school again and thank god there are people I know still there. Yes I'm returning to school for a year five. It was either that or work full time...actually i don't think there was even an option.

But this morning was quite interesting. For one my dog decided to wake me up at 6 am instead of when my alarm was to go off at 6:25 am. He started barking and when I finally got him to shut up I couldn't get back to sleep. So that's how I started my day.

Then I spent the day making sure my brother wasn't lost in the throng of people blocking up the damn halls. I even had to tell a bunch of people to move it from my brother's locker. Yes Phil I actually nudged into a kid and told them to move it:P be proud phil, be proud.

Anyways apparently we're allowed cell phones in the halls now, just not in class. Of course they'd do this when my graduating class left. They always did stuff like this after I left the school. But I'm back >:D fail I say FAIL!.

Well that's all for tonight, cya!

~Exxy~

If its love

I want ten kids now :(. Lol nah just kidding around. I got that from the song If Its Love by Train. Yep I found Train again. I remember when i listened to that one song I can't remember....something about Jupiter and rain drops...iunno it's long gone. Anyways it's been awhile since I've posted here and I still haven't decided if I should quiet that lovely online game that costs so much effing money. But I'll decide when I find out if I can ride. For now, though, my account will be frozen until I can figure out what I'm going to do.

Most of my rooms back to normal now with a few adds and subtractions.

A few days ago I went into the school and realized that I'll be fine going back again. I forgot how many from our grade actually stayed an extra year.

Anyways Exxy's gonna go do something productive outside before it decides to pour shit down by the buckets.

~Exxy~

Sigh...look what happens when you sleep...

Alright I was extremely tired so I decided to take a nap and Rave came along and snuggled up to me and then Sybil fell asleep on my shoes on the floor. Well I was peacefully sleeping until I heard this:

"Did you get all three of them?" "SHHHHHHH!"

And yeah i think this can tell the rest of the story....
















































Special Thanks to my mom and brother who had the camera and were watching me as I slept:P

~Exxy~

Phil Read Zees!

A reply to your comment that I just saw, I know where you live; you showed me pictures of the place and kinda told me the town/city you were moving into:P Just thought you should know you're secret location ain't much of a secret from the Mighty B, Exxy the Sexxy, Your DSGB:P

Life After You

Exxy here with my radio cranked and my computer tower moaning. Oh this old boy has been with me for almost nine years now; I think it's coming to it's retirement soon. I nice long rest just sitting stone cold in my room.

But it will have to work for just a bit longer.

So far today I've started writing character sketches for a small book i've been working on since yesterday. Yes I know what you're all saying "Why are you starting another book!?" Lol well it's because I got an idea for it and I wanted to do something with it. Besides I found my Walk Through Hell novel i've been working on since grade eleven and I'm going to revise the whole part I have written down then continue from there since some of my facts have become screwed up.

Along with all that I am happy and sad to announce that I go back to school September 7th. If you haven't read my other posts up til now i just want you to know that no its not college; i'm going back to high school for another FULL year.

Well that's just about it for now, keep checking back for updates.

~Exxy~

Exxy Be A Skyper

That's right, I did something I said I wouldn't...I installed Skype to my computer. I feel so ashamed of myself and slightly bummed out that I have no contacts on it and I bet none of my friends have Skype; only family. So Phil if you see this please tell me if you have Skype!>.< It's free if you want it and I can send a request to you. YOu can do voice chat, phone calls and messaging. Haven't been able to test it out because, well I have no one on right now:P So anyways I made a video for my youtube channel; actually two of them. The first is me all huddled up in my room and the second is where I decided to catch a glimpse of my brother and I outside in our huge backyard. Then the dog's and my mom joined in; it was pretty funny to my mom when we watched it after; damn those stupid hidden holes in the ground.

So I leave you with a tiny peek into what will be expected once I find some USB cords and actually upload these videos to youtube.

~Exxy~

I'm in this mood

Yes Exxy is in a mood. You want to know what type of mood? Well i'll tell you (for all that said no >.>...) I'm in this mood where I want to listen to sappy sad songs AND loud, hyperish music. It's kinda like i'm in between a Katy Perry song (Thinking of You) and a Black Veil Brides song (Perfect Weapon). So yeah; i put those titles up because I want you to go check them out. But anyways, I forgot I was writing this and left the computer for about two or three hours...wow talk about short attention span:P.

Well I leave you with this little bit of something, until next time!

~Exxy~

Its the Way its Gotta Be

I've noticed this blog has been neglected as of lately and that i left you all with a confusing post as of late. Well my Uncle was sick and I was slightly upset; not totally, but i was. I didn't say anything then for a reason that I can't explain but now he's better and home and I'm glad.

Now let's go over this weekend slightly since I don't know when the next post will be coming.

Alright today I went to Phil's and instead of packing, like planned, we goofed around on youtube and around town. She's leaving in a few more days and then i'm going to be alone :(. But never fear; Exxy and Phil will not die. With WoW those devious WoWer's will hopefully live on. But in real life we won't see each other as much and soon I'll start figuring out what the hell I want with my life and then i'll move on too. We're all growing up.

This year I don't plan on making friends since I know I have a handful of friends that count; that matter.

Anyways this Thursday I'm going to to go to the High School and sign in for a semester to keep me busy while I hopefully work part time. The same day Rave goes for a hair cut.

The rest of the week I have no plans really so that's practically it for tonight.

~Exxy~

Spiraling Down the Well

My stomache hurts; but that could be from the insane amount of watermelon i ingested an hour ago. I haven't cried yet; but that's just me, I hate crying in front of people and they usually wait until I'm in a crowd of people before making their grand escape from my tear ducts. I feel guilty; but I don't know why, i have an idea why but i'm not too sure. Maybe its because I never really went to visit that much. Maybe, hell I don't know...

I feel a dull ache, and it won't go away. I'm anxious and wanting to know what's going on faster; sooner. Some changes are good, this one may hurt me for a long time before I get better.

What I'm talking about is...I can't talk about it right now. I'll explain later; but not here, not now. You'll all have to wait. For now just wait, just wait.

~Exxy~

A New Door Closes While The Old One Welcomes

I haven't been posting as much lately, mostly because some big news has come down on me. After a good week of thinking I decided that I couldn't stay at my dad's for personal reasons that, as always, only close friends know of. I'm a little sad still about leaving my dad but, as I said, personal reasons got in the way.

So now i'm back where I started, in a little town, but this time things have changed; greatly. I'm working on getting a part time job and I'm going back for part of a year of high school before reapplying for college. At the moment I have to research about different programs, but i'm thinking about something with exotic animals; zoology probably. Vet Tech isn't going to work with me, it was a dream; a dream that would never come true.

But I still want to work with animals. Since I was told I needed to communicate better with humans instead of just my dog Raven. Maybe a career with animals is my future; destiny perhaps. Or maybe i'm doomed to never make it really far.

Whatever the future holds for me I'll bring it on with open arms. As someone I know said, "Everything happens for a reason." And it's true, me moving back happened for a reason, I just need to move on the path that was thrown at me and hope I don't crash and burn.

~Exxy~

Yippy skipp...Not

Well i've been put into driving classes now...September 18, what joy...NOT.

I don't want to do this, bad enough I have to go back to fucking school again, but I have to do extra learning, BS.

I was hoping if I kept leaving it to the last minute I wouldn't have to do it, it's going to ruin my WoW time since it's on the weekend and all. I won't have enough time to level Wrathy up and all.

I wanted to do riding again but I decide to screw it, I don't have my things to anyways and now that i'm in this 'driving course' I won't be able to. Fuck my fucking life.

And I don't really want to go back to school anymore, really I graduated already and it's not like another year will change anything for me since I didn't get into college this year; while all my friends are going to college now. I'm a failure what can I say.

Can't even get a job in this effing economy. I've been sitting home for the past month and a half now with really not alot to do; and I don't care if I'm just sitting here playing WoW. And I'm not addicted!

But yea this better just be two weekends because if it's any more than that I'm going to be pissed.


~Exxy~

Wild Horses :(

The title doesn't really say it all, but really when does a title say anything much about what i'm about to say to you guys. Well at the moment i'm listening to Wild Horses by Natasha Bedingfield.

It's got this sad yet sweet tune with lyrics that make me remember back in 2003, when I first owned my own horse and took lessons. I've always loved horses but i never got to ride them or own my own horse. Her name was Sally and i'll never forget her...even five years later.

Now my friends should know about this sad tale; only close friends (Phil). I'll talk about it in a minute but right now I want to think of the happy moments i had, happy years riding horses. They may not have been wild horses, but they were the best horses I had ever met and had the pleasure to ride. So here I'll mention each horse that I met, rode and the few that will always have a place in my heart. They taught me a lot.

Now we'll talk about Sally. God I could write forever about her. Let's start off with the fact that she was sick when I got her and I didn't know how sick she was; i was young. Well she had Lamintitis, it's when a bone in the horse's hooves shifts into a painful position and causes pain to the horse, causing them a lot of pain. For three years I had her, and she had her ups and downs. Finally she got really sick and could barely stand up. Now right now i'm going to mention that my family didn't have the big bucks and had to do what we could afford for her. But I do remember the one time I saw her really happy. It was the day the vet came and gave her painkillers to sooth her hurt. It only lasted temporarily but for the first time she was happy. I just wish we had the money to keep her happy all the time. Well after three years I came back from my dad's only to hear that she was going to be put down. When the day came I will admit I was angry. Angry that she couldn't get better, angry that my family couldn't do anything else. I was also blaming myself. After she was gone I swear I hurt for almost a full year before the pain was numbed. But that whole year any mention of Sally and I would have to hide myself away because I'd start crying. Now it's not so bad, but right now; I can feel tears.

Now before Sally, way back, there was Brandy and Sandy; mostly Brandy. She was the first horse to be set on. A chestnut mare that I remember leading around as a toddler and she never hurt me. Whenever I was at the barn I'd want to be put on Brandy's back. I think i was five at the time, hey I can remember peices of my childhood; mostly the most memorable.

Next was Galaxy and Gumdrop; a few years later. i remember how I'd always say that Gumdrop was my brother's pony and Galaxy was mine. They were both young dapple grey geldings; a matching pair. They weren't rideable but hey they were fun to hang around with. These two I couldn't go into the stall with and under their legs (like Brandy and Sandy). They were the last horses before Sally came along.

The first horse I took lessons on was named Lisa. I think she was a lighter chestnut with a long, thick blaze on her face. I learned the basics on her and went on my first trail rides with her, almost fell off at one point:P. She's gone now but she's mentioned here because she started me off.

Now Ara, the first horse I fell off of and the last horse I owned. She was a beautiful Arabian mare; dark bay with a little star on her forehead. I rode her for a long time until I fell off of her one day and switched another horse. Around Christmas time I was told to go to the barn and found her next to Sally in her own stall. Around that time Sally had become more of a companion horse than a pleasure horse so Ara was who I ended up riding for i think five years; sounds correct enough. Sadly I was afraid of her, since I fell off of her when she was running(Cantering for the horse savy people). I worked on my fear for those five years and finally, the last year I had her, I got over my fear and sad goodbye to her and Brie (the horse that came to keep Ara company when Sally was gone). They had gone to a new home and it's one of the reasons I'm here at my dad's now. We couldn't keep them where they were and it took away a reason to say no to moving away. She's happy now, though, in her new home.

Now Brie was the little Arabian Pony mare that I was put on after Ara. She also came to live with us after Sally was gone. I remember her as one bossy little light bay with so many spots on her I thought of her as a reverse appaloosa at times. Well she lived to the beautiful age of 31 years before we got a call saying at her new home with Ara that she was hurt and then put down a while later. I was asked if I wanted to go see her before they put her down and I said no. Then my grandfather said something that I agree with. "I want to remember her as she went up that trailor ramp with her tail in the air." I also want to mention that she was Phil's favourite horse when she came over.

Tempest was another Arabian mare I rode. She was a dark bay like Ara with a large patch of white on her face. I learned to finally Canter on her and face my fears of falling off. She was quite gentle with me and the last memory i have of her was grooming her. She's gone now too, but she was old. I still have a mental picture of her, faint but still there (the same with Sally; Brie I still see clearly).

Sheldon was the drama queen gelding that I rode; first horse I jumped too. May i also mention he was the tallest horse i'd ever seen or ridden too. He was a light bay with a star on his forehead and I loved riding him. He was smooth to ride and a breeze to jump (especially when they were very tiny jumps compared to him). I went to see him when I went to see Ara and Brie before they left for their new home.

Azzie is another horse I loved to ride. He was a spunky boy. A beautiful coloured gelding whom I fell off more times than Ara. But I still got back up on him and continued to ride and jump. He was the last horse I rode in a lesson before I stopped going.

Lucy was a pretty arabian mare; chestnut. She was also a smooth ride, more smooth than Sheldon, with a wonderful canter that I could ride forever at. She was actually the very last horse I rode before I moved. It wasn't a lesson; just a final ride before I said goodbye.

Jake was a red dun I rode when my school had a horse club. He was a six year old gelding who I barrel raced on. It was just for fun but he brought out a love for western riding that I never had before. For the longest time I wanted to barrel race after that; still do ;P.

And any horse I forgot, I can still remember them I just never had a long time to get to know them like the other horses. The ones listed above are only a few of the many I had ridden in my short eighteen years of life. Really if I tried to remember and make a little paragraph of each I'd have to go onto a part two of this blog so i'll just put their names:
Shadow, Apache, Starsky, Jordie, King and I know there are a few others but i'm having trouble remembering names right now; it's late.

So with that I'm going to say goodnight and hopefully you don't make the same mistake I did and give up something you love.

~Exxy~

Gas Attack and Candy Ropes

Well I'm back from a very long absense due to not enough internet memory. At the moment I'm about to open up the best candy ever to exist, Rainbow NERDS Rope! Yeah saw them at the Dollar Store and though, hey haven't had them in a while and bought two (One for my bro and one for me).

Currently I'm at my mom's til Tuesday and I'm going to try and hang out with everyone I know down here to make up for the whole month of not finding friends to hangout with (something I've found to have trouble with alot).

So yesterday we took Sybil, bro's dog, to PetSmart for her training class before buying treats and other things there. Then we went to Walmart and I picked up the Marianas Trench CD, Percy Jackson: The Lightening Theif, and a Wii game called Horse Life Adventures (Shut the fuck up, I'll never be too old for horse games; in my effing blood to be forever tied to horsey stuff).

When I got back I instantly put the game in and played for a bit 'til we had to eat and then played some more. Then today I opened up the movie and watched half of it because we had to go into town and I was offered to drive around town. I'll possibly play the CD later on while I'm playing with my graduation present, a Bamboo digital art tablet. (:D) Yep I got one and I'm having a lot of fun with it; recently working on a horse head.

Well that's all for now, I'm going to finally open the wrapper since I've been typing this whole time; so much has happened.

~Exxy~

Here she is

Here's a pic of the pretty girl, i'm proud of my brother, he picked a cute one :P

Raven has a cousin and Exxy's an Aunt :D

Yep i tell the truth, Raven has a cousin named Sybil, a boston terrier. And I'm an aunt, yes i know it's a dog but still our family does stuff like that especially if we're not old enough to have kids. Well I'm going to ask if I can put a picture of her up here so you won't get to see her right away, if ever. I have to ask my mom if I can borrow one of the pictures. But she's really cute and attached to my brother; as seen by pictures.

Well have a great night.

~Exxy~

Paint and More Paint

I think two days is enough time to wait for a new post by me. Well the last two days have been somewhat busy. Yesterday I had cleaned up the basement of dust and vacuumed it up a bit before closing windows and shit; just minor stuff. Tonight was the most busy night so far with beginning to paint the walls. Yep that's how far the basement has come along and soon I hope to go back up to my mom's and pick up the rest of my stuff and make myself feel more like I'm home. Right now I don't even have my own computer and not really a private place for me to go and hide away from the world. I really can't wait.

Well on to the painting bit of the blog. I believe i've got paint where I never dreamed possible while wielding a hand paint brush and standing on a ladder painting corners. Here's a detail description of the paint massacre.

I had paint all the way up my right arm and a big spot smudged close to my arm pit, my fingers were semi coated with the white crap, I have it all over my shirt and pants, my left arm was semi white up to my elbow since i'm right handed and barely used it at all. Oh and I managed to get a nice white streak in my black and red hair. Now you all are probably wondering why I don't go and just shower the paint off...well it was late when I finished helping and my baby bro's room is right by the bathroom so I couldn't shower; I'm so doing it tomorrow though! >.< I feel gross. I just hope the paint comes out of my hair or i'll be going against the one rule of dying my hair; putting white in it:P

So now I'm completely sore and I want to sleep but I still have things I want to do before hitting the nice, soft, mattress. That my dad's dog is currently taking over on me.

On another note i've heard that people can't comment on my blogs for some reason; I don't know how to fix that really so just keep trying and maybe something will happen and it will work again.

Later days.

~Exxy~

Aren't You So Lucky

Yep two posts in one day from yours truly. And yes again i'm listening to the sad violen peice. And yes it's making me think sad thoughts again. But it's so beautiful. But it's making me realize that...Cyphile... I miss you man!>.< I mean WOman.

I'm so alone here, I don't know anyone and no one knows me here. But you Phil, you know me alot more than I can say about really anyone else I've met. Just please move down sooner, I'm really feeling like I have no friends right now.

Now you probably know why I keep asking when you're coming down because...truth is...i need you man T.T

HOLY FUCKING COW THERE"S A HUGE ASS SPIDER HOLY FUCK!!!!
O.O Shit it's trapped me! OMG AHHHHH It can climb walls!!! RAVEN, RAVEN!!!! EAT IT>.< DO YOU"RE MASTER PROUD!!! EAT THE HARRY BASTARD CALLED A SPIDER. OMG IT"S A FAST ONE TOO!!! WAKE UP RAVEN!!!!!!!!

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Ahem sorry about that everyone...wellll...that was pretty embarrasing...
On a good note I killed it and to all those spider lovers out there it was kick; why would I let it suffer and have a chance of escaping only to reap it's revenge upon me during the night? I'm not THAT stupid.

Anyways that whole sappy moment has been destroyed and what remains of my energy gone thanks to that spider that had to come out of no where and scare the sappy, sadness out of me and bring upon fear and a need to grab my favourite pair of sneakers and bash it so that it's stuck as a paste on the bottom of my lovely sneakers. >.<

well goodnight to all; I need sleep badly.

~Exxy~

Saddest peice of music I have ever listened to

This song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gIuotFZnBtk&playnext_from=TL&videos=Lh2wI_TC8us&feature=recentf is the saddest song I've ever listened to. This music actually made me cry and I'm still listening to this beautiful music. The reason I cried was because the melody reminds me of my old time favourite movie, Black Beauty. It's about a horse and it's all in his point of view back in the day when horses were treated so cruelly by many. It went through from the first day he was born and on through the good times and the bad times that he had. Of what happened to the only friends he had and where he ended up in the end.

Most of this song brings back the parts of when Black Beauty is laying in the field of his final home with the man that use to be the young groom that he met at his first home. He's thinking about Ginger and Merry Legs. Now if you've ever watched the movie you'll understand why I find this sad because Ginger dies part way through from neglect and abuse. Merry Legs is not mentioned after they sell the pony in the beginning but Ginger is brought up alot and was with Beauty the longest through the movie.

The last scene of the movie that really gets me is when he's imagining the days back in his first home when he, Ginger and Merry Legs would run through the pasture together during the days; looking young and happy and full of life.

I think Black Beauty was the reason I first started to love horses and I still have that movie seventeen years later. It was a beautiful movie and full of emotion. It depicted the life of a horse back then and I will always have a place in my heart for Black Beauty, Ginger and Merry Legs.


Now you all might think i'm a big softy but that movie really hits home with me and this music just brought back the days I enjoyed sitting by the TV watching as Beauty was born, trained, sold a dozen times and finally found peace with the boy he once use to play with in the fields; and he'd never be leaving that place as long as he lived.

Sorry for the sappy post but I had to get that all out.

~Exxy~

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I won't be posting as much at the moment because really I don't give a fuck right now and I have nothing to say so yeah don't look for me.

~Exxy~

What's up my fellow Canadians! :D

Yes I said fellow Canadians, not americans so ha! Anyways i'm in a hyper mood seeing as i woke up at 6:45 for no effing reason. The people that were suppose to work on the basement came said it was still wet and left. So yeah you can imagine how pissed I was at that revelations. And if you know me, which i doubt(except for you Phil), you'd know that I had mornings with such a cold blooded passion. I'm always pissed if i'm forced to wake up before at least 9 o'clock. It use to be 1 pm so yeah you can see how waking up fifteen minutes to seven would drive me crazy. And I actually looked at myself in the mirror when I woke up at that time this morning. Here's what I can describe:

Imagine seeing a girl with messy hair in a ponytail, bangs sticking in every fucking direction. Her eyes have eyeliner from the night before still around her eyes and it's smudged making it look like I'm either a raccoon, zombie or two bit hooker (or like I haven't slept in ages if you don't like the last one). Then imagine Hello Kitty pj bottoms and a hoodie over top of a top that's all pink and *shudder*. Then the look on my face is one of a scowl and of half awakeness. Then just add tons of yawning to that and voila you have me.

So yeah don't wake me up for ANYTHING before nine. Oh also I'm pretty much a huge bitch before nine also. Especially if I have to rush around the house to make sure everythings all ready before people show up....


Well there you have it my fellow Canadians. And shall I say have a wonderful day in your igloos, make sure you feed those husky dogs and beware of the polar bears on your way to work:P See ya around Eh!

~Exxy~

This message was brought to you by Exxy who's actually Canadian and hopefully fellow Canadians will laugh at the end of this and others will be like O.o

Do You Believe....

That it's been so long since I've posted? Wow, but i have been busy. I've handed in applications for two places and i'm about to apply to Walmart and then check Mcdonalds to apply there. So yeah still job hunting.

I got out of the house today, went and hung out for an hour and a half with a friend of mine. It was fun, I had a good time. We basically talked about anything that came to mind but I was freakin' nervous. I feel like I barely know him, it's been years since we actually hung out, i'm not including the walmart visits, and I didn't know what to say.

Oh and about my title, it's a song by Still Standing that I've been listening to. It's called...Do You Believe. Yes, and i'm listening to it right now as I update my blog site.

So as I replay the song and sit here I contemplate how i've just lost the game:P.

~Exxy~

So she requested...

And so shall she receive! :D lol yeah Phil has been bugging me to make a new post since I swore an oath, mind you I have no recollection of making it the way she put it, to post every day through rain, shine and....yes...she said semen...:P

So here's my post for today, though it may be short since I am awaiting upon a call. I will tell you what happened yesterday. I grabbed applications from numerous stores and I am out job hunting. It's a pain in the ass but it has to happen....:P

I'm about to leave to drop off/watch my baby bro as my dad goes to pick something up. So yeah here goes nothing:P.


Anyways since this post is short I would like to inform Philly that though the weather is hot and the seagulls are lurking around every corner I still can't get pass the the idea that I lost the game:P


Have a nice day Phil:P

~Exxy~

What's been up

So far tomorrow I'm hanging out with one of my cousins that lives very close to where I am. I barely get to hang out with her so moving here has many advantages, this being one of them.

I'm just chilling here at home, on Tylenol Extra Strength and being sick already. So to keep myself from doubling over in pain I just did my laundry and cleaned up a few things but besides that I'm just chilling.

I hope the summer picks up soon and doesn't stay as uneventful as it has lately. But I talked to a friend I hadn't seen since the day of my last exam. I'm hoping that the basement is finished soon so that I can have her come over for a bit. Problem is she lives all the way back near the town that I left behind.

Anyways I'm going to go play WoW.

~Exxy~

Busy Summer

Well I think it's been two days since I've posted anything but it's not because I'm neglecting, it's because i've been busy.

So far this summer's turning out to be my most busiest. I've been doing alot of chores around the house and helping with the basement.

But no worries I haven't been keeping myself from talking to Phil online at least every night. That would be torture really to me with no friends here.

And Thursday I may be hanging out with my cousin that lives fairly close by to where I am. I have to call her Wednesday to find out if it's possible, since I still only have my G1. But I'm getting my G2 soon!

Yeah i'm getting signed up for lessons sometime so when my birthday rolls around I can get my G2.

I'm hoping I can go down to my mom's in August for a visit before I start school again. By that time Phil said she'd be moved up to around this area, much closer than where she is now.

I think after cleaning up the pantry I'll ding Wrathy to lvl 63 today since I'm so close to doing so.

Well that's all for today, I should get back to work.

~Exxy~

Second Day

Hey well it's been day two and I'm tired.

Yesterday I went biking with my dad and then walked the dogs. I just walked the dogs today as well as get some bedroom stuff moved into the upstairs computer room so I have somewhere to sleep until my bedroom is complete.

But besides that i've been doing alot, more than what I do at my mom's so it's new to me.

I got WoW back and have chatted with Philly and her boyfriend for the first time in a few days. It feels odd talking to them online and not being able to see them whenever anymore.

Well apparently I have to act like a normal teenager and hang out with ppl most of my time. I've been told I shouldn't stay inside all the time and well that's not me. I'm not some preppy snob that likes hanging out twenty-four/seven and doing stuff outside all the time. The sun gives me a headache and I feel just as well inside talking to online friends and hanging out with them online in their toon modes:P.

But anyways this is just a short report of my life. Later days:P

~Exxy~

Moved

As the title portrays I have moved in with my dad now. Everythings not all settled in yet but it will be soon. But now that I'm here God I miss Phil and everyone else. I was totally pumped but then today as I finished packing and got into the van I felt like I was losing a slight part of me, making me feel incomplete.

Raven's all settled with Iko and everyone is just chilling for now. I watched some TV and decided to come on here and tell you all about what's been going on since last night.

And now I just had a thought, until i get my computer hooked up, since i'm currently on my dad's laptop, that blogger will be sort of a connection to Phil since she reads this stuff. She can see what i'm up to and all that fun stuff. But I do miss her alot :(.

Well i'm going to finish checking my mail and then I have no clue what i'll do.

~Exxy~

Eclipse

I just got back from seeing Eclipse, the Twilight movie. It was amazing and I must say, Jacob, Jasper and Alec were pretty hot/cute/sexy/adorable. Lol, I'm a sucker for vampires and werewolves:P.

But before I could go I had to pack more things and tomorrow I only have a few minutes to pack the remainder of my things, such as my computer that I'm currently typing on at the moment, and some more books. Then I'm getting picked up some time in the morning.

At the moment I'm pretty tired, long afternoon for me. I'm excited though, I don't know why though, hard to explain. Or maybe I'm just super tired at the moment and in need of at least a few hours of sleep since I'm going to the bookstore tomorrow morning, early too.

So now the next chapter in my life will begin and the true Exxy's New Beginning blogs will start up. Time to shake off the little kid shell and flex my closely approaching adult skin.

I'm sure going to visit the people I know in this town, I can't forget them. I know before I couldn't wait and I counted down the days but now that it's here, I'm kind of sad. I'm going to miss the people I let into my life over the eight years in this town. Eight years ago I came to this town shy and alone, tomorrow I leave this town a new me and not as alone as I started out. I have friends, good friend, true friends. And I never want to forget all that I store in my mind right now, these were precious times that I hope stick with me for a life time, if not longer.

~Exxy~

Two days left in this town

On Friday my dad's coming all the way here to pick me up along with some stuff. Tomorrow I'm going to have to lock myself into my room and pack clothes and anything else I will need or want right away. Then I'll just pack and stow away the rest in a corner until my room is complete and I can come and get it.

It's all happening so fast. I went into town tonight and we went by the school. I felt myself watching it as I went by and thinking again that this wasn't reality and that I'd suddenly wake up in class while one of our math teachers was prepping us for a math test. That right now as I type that tomorrow I'll wake up and my alarm will go off and I'll get up. I'd get dressed, do my hair and makeup, wait for my bus at the end of the drive way, and another day of school will begin. That I'd walk down the halls and see people I know and go about my day as usual.

But that's not going to happen. Tomorrow will be like the last few days for me:
Get up, eat something, lounge around the house, and pack things.

Can anyone stop time because I think I could use a time stopper so I can just take everything in. Maybe even go back a few days, or weeks, or years. Then just stop the time. It's as if yesterday I was walking into the big high school staring nervously at all the lockers and people. Just yesterday I was doing Geography and Phys. Ed. Just yesterday I was meeting people I never expected to change my life as they have. And today I've graduated, I'm moving, I have great friends, and I just hope I'll stay in contact with them over the years, if just a few.

Can someone say too soon? It's too soon for all of this. Heh, I remember when I was in grade nine and I had this stupid hair cut that was such a mistake. I wore colourful clothing and no make up at all. I was shy and reserved from many people. Now I wear almost all black, wearing eyeliner, I've dyed my hair god knows how many times, and I've learned the way of straight hair. I'm not as shy as before and I don't reserve myself as much. So I should say high school has helped me become who I am today; high school and good friends...scratch that GREAT friends.

So I write this with a heavy heart as I think of how much I'm going to miss the good days. Going way back, missing the days of swings with Phil, missing the days of going around town, missing the days of thinking when will summer be here, missing the days of going to Timmies, missing the days of sleep overs and WoW nights. I'm going to miss it all.

This is Exxy and I'm going to finish this up before I start to cry.

~Exxy~

Graduation

Today was graduation day for the class of 2010 at my school. The ceremony wasn't as long as I thought it would be. I wasn't really into going at first but once I was there I got into it and I wished it could have lasted longer now. All the people I saw today I may never see again.

For four years I counted down the days til I was free from high school....now I'd turn back all four years just to relive those days. I'm going to miss them.

I almost started to cry today, I don't know if it was from the lethargic feeling I was in or really the fact that I was becoming emotional.

So in a few days I'll be moving out and starting a new life in a new place. But this time I'll be a young adult trying to find my place in this world. It all feels too good to be really true. But when I held that folder in my hand and walked down that stage back to my seat, oh god i'm starting to cry now, it all started to feel real.

I talked to Cyphale today and I'm thinking now, when will I see her physically again? I know I'll see her on WoW but when will we get together and hang out again? Tonight may be the last time I see her for a while now.

Anyways I just wanted to post something about the graduation, there's nothing really important happening tonight except me getting sleep and packing tomorrow, getting ready for Friday.

~Exxy~

2 days left

Hello all, just two more days til graduation. I'm not really excited though; just another event planned to give us our proof of passing high school but they draw it out to the point you want to just ninja out of there. Which I can't do since that would be "Disrespectful to my peers" Well I really don't care. I didn't even know half of them, and they probably didn't know who I was.

I'm in a really dark mood at the moment, I don't know when it will pass to tell the truth. They come and go at times.

I'm moving in a few days, this week to be exact. I'm starting a new life and I don't' even think I'm ready for the change that's about to take place. I feel this sick feeling in the pit of my chest and it's bothering me severely. I fear I'll never find my place in this world. I'm so indecisive about what I want to do after high school that at the moment I don't even care. I really have no care left in me really. I feel blank at times.

A few minutes ago I felt like I was becoming anti-social, like I didn't want to talk to anyone, I just wanted to be left alone. I'm not too bad at the moment since I'm talking to someone but before that I just didn't even want to bother with anyone. Mostly with ppl I know online.


Well I think that's all I feel up to typing about. I'll be around.

~Exxy~

4 More Days

Hello all, not in much a good mood anymore. Finished exams today so I have four days to blow until Graduation. I don't want to go; why should I? I have no future anymore, nothing I want to chase after high school. I already tried to find something I like but each time I feel I'm shot down each time, so I'm left with nothing.

I'm tired right now, I have to get up early, and I'm just not in a great mood at the moment, I'm feeling it come back. The feeling of sinking and falling; nothing's going right anymore....


~Exxy~

5 More Days!

First exams are done now and two more to go on Friday. Finally Grad will go by and we'll be left to doing our own things for the summer. I'm moving away, friends are doing their own thing, family's planning stuff while I'm gone.

Recently I've thought of an idea for Phil and I to do; create a bucket list.

For all those people out there that have no clue what a bucket list is here's the simple answer: Its a list of things to do before we die. So far we have 32 things on the list, we want 100.

Many of it will probably never come true but hopefully at least some are checked off before too long.


Well nothing more to say really but to all those people out their graduating or have already graduated in the year 2010, congratulations and hope for the best for you and your new life; no matter how exciting or how plain it may end up being.

Don't look back, if you can, and walk forward with a new view on life. Hey we're a few years to being adults; we're young adults now but soon we'll be adults.

Anyways I'm probably going home shortly so this post will end here.

~Exxy~

6 More Days!

I'm home all day today seeing as I have no exam today. But I have one tomorrow, fml. It's math too...fml2

So i'm bored because I've got nothing to do really; everyone I know is busy and I'm in the middle of no where so I can't really walk into town; it'd be like a hike. And Phil i'll come out this weekend, ignore me from yesterday I was tired when I got home and I snapped at basically everyone I saw, my brother, my mother....yeah that's about it.

Anways that is all for today.


~Exxy~

P.S. Since my comment box doesn't work if you want to comment just post in my facebook inbox the title of the blog and what you wanted to say. This will only be possible to ppl that know me but i'll put the link up next time. Or go to my Excaliburia blog and it's there in the newest or second newest blog post.

7 More Days! And Exam Week

Yes only about a week left of school before we're free! Finally; I can't even remember how long I've been waiting and wishing it would end faster. But that day has come. This week will be full of exams, aka the 23rd and 25th for me. Then we all have to head back to school on the 29th to graduate and after that at any day I will be loading my things up and leaving.

So what am I gonna do with these few days? Will I'll most likely just come home after exams and then just lay around at home until graduation night, except for the 28th i have something planned that day. So Cyphile if you read this it's alright for the 23rd, i'll just go home after my exam; it's not you, if you want to know what pm me on Facebook.


Anyways I'm going to go wait for the bus to show up and then go outside.


~Exxy~

8 more days!

Yep I missed a day but I was in a really crappy mood and school drama isn't fun at all. Can't wait to leave this town, maybe i'll find peace in another town with old friends. Yes I've been meeting with friends from my grade school years since i'm really close to where I use to live :). I'm so happy, they're some of my true, close friends from then. I still want to keep in close contact with a few of my other friends that i've met in this town but, I don't know, I can't describe my feelings with words.

So there are only 8 more days of school, technically only two but I'm counting the four exam days and then up until graduation. I'm not counting weekends since they're not spent at school but in the confinements of my home with nothing to do; that's why I never post those days if i don't have to.

Anyways about stuff that's been going on lately. Well I've had three pre-exams so far, math and two english exams. I have another exam tomorrow which is Ancient Civilations. Then on the 21st I should see if I have another exam or not, but then after the 21st I have official exams which for me, since i have a spare, are on the 23rd and the 25th. I would have had one on the 24th but it was moved to the afternoon of the 25th.

Aside from exams, I was invited to a pool party the day before graduation day. It's at my ex boyfriend's place but his sister invited me and well i like her, she's cool. Besides it may be the last time I get to hang out with some people after I move out. Never know if I ever come back.

Then I had made a disicion for the future. In around five years, when i hopefully am living on my own with a secure job and all, I want to get another dog for Raven as companionship. I want to get a bull mastiff. They're so beautiful and great for protection too.

Well that's all for tonight, watch for me in the next few days as school grows closer and closer to a end.

~Exxy~

10 more days!

Alright I went through my old comments and I read that Cyphale wants to know when I'm moving. Well I'll be here til the weekend after I graduate from high school. Since my dad works on the week days so I'll have to wait for a weekend til I can move my stuff. So we have a few days before i'm gone.

That is all for tonight.

~Exxy~

11 more days!

Another day, and another post. Not alot to say only that I'm so gonna fail math :(. I have a crappy mark and my first exam is tomorrow and guess what it is...yes MATH. Fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck!. Oh wow I haven't used that phraze in a while. Ugh I'm getting old. lol not really, I'm not even eighteen yet, I will be in the fall.
Anyways not alot to talk about after thinking about it for a bit.

~Exxy~

12 more days

Well ladies and gents, another weekend has flown by leaving two and a half weeks of school left on the agenda with pre-exams closing in and the big exams ready behind the front lines.

Wow, i'm making it sound like a battle...
But it is really, having to study and then find something to do after the exam that day since it's an exam a day and I have a spare first period so I don't have to even go to school that day. It's even worse with nothing to do, well I could play Zoo Tycoon 2 all day and then some Pokemon...

Anyways that's all for tonight, not much to say but I can't wait for summer to begin so I can finish the packing and moving>.<. I can see that this summer is going to be a really busy one.


~Exxy~

13 more days

Well I got the computer today. But I'm at my dad's for the weekend. And as you might have noticed I pimped out my blog so no more pink!

Anyways I'm home alone for the day so I decided to blog since no one is online being that it's school today. I tried playing pokemon on the DS but you can only do that for so long before getting tired of it.

I'm just listening to music at the moment while writing a new story to pass the time. I may be going to see an old friend today if my dad gets home from work not too late. If not then there's all summer seeing as I'm moving up.

Is it bad that I like sleeping on the couch? Haha for some reason I find it comforting and comfortable to me. In a bed it's so big and lonely but when sleeping on a couch it feels so warm and cuddly. Now that sounded totally weird, but it's true!

Well that's all for today.

~Exxy~

Quick Update

Well I got to go in five, so to everyone that reads this, Cyphale, I won't be online so much, but gotta go now!>.< Oh and sorry I wasn't at school today if i get the chance i'll tell you why Phil!.


~Exxy~

14 more days

This is a little late for a blog but i've been busy up until now.
I have a huge report due tomorrow that I don't even have finished yet plus I had a friend out til late. But this weekend, as i said in the previous blog, I won't be online as much. But tomorrow morning I'm not going to my morning class so I'll probably blog before going to my afternoon classes.
Well Three more weeks before the big moving day. And as the deadline grows nearer I feel this weird feeling in my chest and I think about how I'm going to stay in contact with everyone I know. I don't want to lose some of the poeple I've met over the years.

Well nothing much else to blog about tonight.

~Exxy~

15 more days

Well the count down continues as we draw closer and closer to exams. For many in this school it is just one of many more exams in the near future, but for us it is closing in on our end here at high school. It's Tuesday here right now and I have two more days left before I go to my dad's for a private long weekend. I'm missing Friday because I haven't been up for a while and my mom arranged it. Of course she does this nearing the time of exams when I have to be at school but whatever. Let the teachers be mad at her, could be interesting.

Today is the last day of official classes and now we're moved into exam weeks. I have a few pre-exams before the big exams that are near the very end of the month of June. Then we graduate on June the 29th. After that we're free to do as we please.

I've been thinking lately of all the things I will have to mail in to change before I leave or after I leave. Like my license that I have the addressed changed and the dog's tags. Then I have to get things insured like the car I'm suppose to get. And today in math class I actually saw what different expenses there would be for me in the future; some in the near future. Here are a few:

Well there's car insurance, pet bills, fuel expenses, repair bills for various things, and many other expenses.

Aside from all that I have three weeks to get in some serious hanging out with people I know. And if Cyphale reads this could she please comment or email me if you want to hang out because this summer's gonna be a busy one. We should hang out damn it!

Well that's all for today, won't be here during the weekend or if I am on it will be brief little updates. And Thursday will probably either be early morning or not made because I'm leaving then.


~Exxy~

Mistake! still 16 days!

Yes I made a mistake last night and found out there are still sixteen days left. Oh well, just one extra day til count down is over.
Anyways i've been...i've been...what the fuck is raven doing.....
ALRIGHT back on topic! I've been doing little in the past few days but today I hung out with a few friends and talked alot. And i thought a bit about the years before and how I miss them alot and OH my internet came back on! Now for some Bon Jovi. Alright as I was saying, well basically the early years were awesome and these present years are good because of the technology we have now that we didn't have then.
Anyways not much for tonight really, so i'm just going to end it here and do other things.

~Exxy~

16 more days

Alright my last post said that I was waiting for disappointment. Well tonight I will tell you that I had a blast yesterday. I went and rode for an hour and after I felt so happy that I had come back but as I left I realized that would be the last time for a long time that I would get to see that barn and those people. Especially my riding coach that had taught me for almost five years. I remember all the times that I rode there and the horses that I rode. I remember the first horse I had ever ridden there, the first horse that I was introduced to; Ara. She was also the last horse I've owned up to date. Then there was Brie who I didn't hit off too well with when I did ride her. She's passed on last summer after we gave her and Ara away. Next was Tempest the sweetest mare I've ever met. I rode her for a bit before I grew confident enough for another horse after a fall. She passed a few years ago, I think the last year I rode there until yesterday. Next was Sheldon who I learned to jump on and then Azzie who I went I think two or three feet on. I rode a horse named Starsky and once or twice on this paint dun. Yesterday I rode on my favourite arabian mare, Lucy.
So now I'm sore but it's alright, the pain keeps me remembering until the pain is gone and all I have left is what's in my mind.
Anyways tomorrow I go back to school for a four day week since I won't be there on Friday; Going to my dad's Thursday night.

~Exxy~

17 more days

And the count down continues.

So lately I've been trying to get a last lesson for riding but it keeps failing on me some how and some way. Well this is the third attempt since this whole week has been sort of shitty to me. Rain and stuff. Well I'm feeling the confidence going slowly with each cancellation and thinking I'll never get to go before I leave.

Well it's a Saturday here and at the moment the sun is trying it's hardest to peak out from within the over cast clouds.

At this moment I have found my boots and helmet, after great search and rescue, and I will be severely pissed if the weather ruins it again for me because I nearly had a heart attack looking for my old equipment.

It's 7:40 am now and I'm waiting for my grandfather to come back so he can take me, saying that I can still go.

I still have to get dressed really. Maybe this lethargic mood is summoned from the fact that I'm still waiting for a call saying I can't go. Thinking that if I get up and actually get ready before the set time that I will have gotten prepared for nothing. So I sit here and type to all of you while waiting for the bad news to ruin the rest of my weekend. But that's the way I am, pessemesstic to the extreme. If I feel that failure is coming upon me or people I know I get the sense that nothing I do can change the fact of failure engulfing me in a tidal wave of misery.

Wow, I'm really sounding emo...no offence to the words. But I notice when I'm sad I use huge ass words that no one can understand. Heh maybe if I'm depressed all the time I could pass math! Haha what a thought.

Washed Rave last night since he decided to lay in a hill of red ants and they decided to cast revenge on him.

Yesterday I was at a funeral so I didn't go to school and let me tell you; I almost started to cry. I actually had to look up at the ceiling to hold it together and then I just covered my face with my hair briefly before thinking it was disrespectful and pulled it away from my face. I get pretty emotional at funerals; even if I didn't truly know the person, just briefly met them.

Anyways before we went to the funeral we had to go to an eye appointment for my brother and then we had time to kill so we went to A & W for lunch with my cousin, aunt, mom and brother before going to the mall. My mom gave me her cell and let us wander through the shittiest mall I have ever been in. NO MUSIC STORE! I can't believe it. They had tons of freakin' girly girl stores but no stores to satisfy my personality. So we found a pet store, looked at Haltis for Raven and then found a book store where I found The Heroin Diaries! I got it and I'm so happy I got it. The album was good and I had seen the book before so this time I got it. It's about Nikki Sixx and the diary and journal entries he had written from one year in the 80's. It's pretty amazing of a read you should pick it up some time.

Well I think I've gone on long enough since it's 7:50 am, around ten minutes of typing. So I better go wait for the call that will dampen my mood this weekend and kill my spirits.

~Exxy~

18 More

Hello again, well I was thinking and thought up the idea to count down the school days, not including weekends, to when I move with little things I still have to do. Well for once I have to seal up boxes soon and collect some of my stuff from friends and return things I've borrowed. Also I have to read some books I'm borrowing from family and give them back real soon. Ugh all this planning is a pain in my butt.

Anyways it's pretty late and I have to get up early this morning; seven actually. That'll be fun; wait I do that every day. Haha not for long I tell you. Can't wait for that really. But then in September I'm repeating my last year at a new school with new people; uber fun I say.

So that's all from Exxy for now. May the countdown continue.

~Exxy~

A New Beginning

Here's to a new beginning....that starts in 27 days. But anyways I thought I'd put one of my lonely blogs to good use, so Exxy's Corner is no more and now we have Exxy's New Beginning. Here, as I have said numerous times on my blog, is where I will put everything that happens to me from the day I graduate and on. So be looking out for me in 27 days.

~Exxy~