Sigh...look what happens when you sleep...

Alright I was extremely tired so I decided to take a nap and Rave came along and snuggled up to me and then Sybil fell asleep on my shoes on the floor. Well I was peacefully sleeping until I heard this:

"Did you get all three of them?" "SHHHHHHH!"

And yeah i think this can tell the rest of the story....
















































Special Thanks to my mom and brother who had the camera and were watching me as I slept:P

~Exxy~

Phil Read Zees!

A reply to your comment that I just saw, I know where you live; you showed me pictures of the place and kinda told me the town/city you were moving into:P Just thought you should know you're secret location ain't much of a secret from the Mighty B, Exxy the Sexxy, Your DSGB:P

Life After You

Exxy here with my radio cranked and my computer tower moaning. Oh this old boy has been with me for almost nine years now; I think it's coming to it's retirement soon. I nice long rest just sitting stone cold in my room.

But it will have to work for just a bit longer.

So far today I've started writing character sketches for a small book i've been working on since yesterday. Yes I know what you're all saying "Why are you starting another book!?" Lol well it's because I got an idea for it and I wanted to do something with it. Besides I found my Walk Through Hell novel i've been working on since grade eleven and I'm going to revise the whole part I have written down then continue from there since some of my facts have become screwed up.

Along with all that I am happy and sad to announce that I go back to school September 7th. If you haven't read my other posts up til now i just want you to know that no its not college; i'm going back to high school for another FULL year.

Well that's just about it for now, keep checking back for updates.

~Exxy~

Exxy Be A Skyper

That's right, I did something I said I wouldn't...I installed Skype to my computer. I feel so ashamed of myself and slightly bummed out that I have no contacts on it and I bet none of my friends have Skype; only family. So Phil if you see this please tell me if you have Skype!>.< It's free if you want it and I can send a request to you. YOu can do voice chat, phone calls and messaging. Haven't been able to test it out because, well I have no one on right now:P So anyways I made a video for my youtube channel; actually two of them. The first is me all huddled up in my room and the second is where I decided to catch a glimpse of my brother and I outside in our huge backyard. Then the dog's and my mom joined in; it was pretty funny to my mom when we watched it after; damn those stupid hidden holes in the ground.

So I leave you with a tiny peek into what will be expected once I find some USB cords and actually upload these videos to youtube.

~Exxy~

I'm in this mood

Yes Exxy is in a mood. You want to know what type of mood? Well i'll tell you (for all that said no >.>...) I'm in this mood where I want to listen to sappy sad songs AND loud, hyperish music. It's kinda like i'm in between a Katy Perry song (Thinking of You) and a Black Veil Brides song (Perfect Weapon). So yeah; i put those titles up because I want you to go check them out. But anyways, I forgot I was writing this and left the computer for about two or three hours...wow talk about short attention span:P.

Well I leave you with this little bit of something, until next time!

~Exxy~

Its the Way its Gotta Be

I've noticed this blog has been neglected as of lately and that i left you all with a confusing post as of late. Well my Uncle was sick and I was slightly upset; not totally, but i was. I didn't say anything then for a reason that I can't explain but now he's better and home and I'm glad.

Now let's go over this weekend slightly since I don't know when the next post will be coming.

Alright today I went to Phil's and instead of packing, like planned, we goofed around on youtube and around town. She's leaving in a few more days and then i'm going to be alone :(. But never fear; Exxy and Phil will not die. With WoW those devious WoWer's will hopefully live on. But in real life we won't see each other as much and soon I'll start figuring out what the hell I want with my life and then i'll move on too. We're all growing up.

This year I don't plan on making friends since I know I have a handful of friends that count; that matter.

Anyways this Thursday I'm going to to go to the High School and sign in for a semester to keep me busy while I hopefully work part time. The same day Rave goes for a hair cut.

The rest of the week I have no plans really so that's practically it for tonight.

~Exxy~

Spiraling Down the Well

My stomache hurts; but that could be from the insane amount of watermelon i ingested an hour ago. I haven't cried yet; but that's just me, I hate crying in front of people and they usually wait until I'm in a crowd of people before making their grand escape from my tear ducts. I feel guilty; but I don't know why, i have an idea why but i'm not too sure. Maybe its because I never really went to visit that much. Maybe, hell I don't know...

I feel a dull ache, and it won't go away. I'm anxious and wanting to know what's going on faster; sooner. Some changes are good, this one may hurt me for a long time before I get better.

What I'm talking about is...I can't talk about it right now. I'll explain later; but not here, not now. You'll all have to wait. For now just wait, just wait.

~Exxy~

A New Door Closes While The Old One Welcomes

I haven't been posting as much lately, mostly because some big news has come down on me. After a good week of thinking I decided that I couldn't stay at my dad's for personal reasons that, as always, only close friends know of. I'm a little sad still about leaving my dad but, as I said, personal reasons got in the way.

So now i'm back where I started, in a little town, but this time things have changed; greatly. I'm working on getting a part time job and I'm going back for part of a year of high school before reapplying for college. At the moment I have to research about different programs, but i'm thinking about something with exotic animals; zoology probably. Vet Tech isn't going to work with me, it was a dream; a dream that would never come true.

But I still want to work with animals. Since I was told I needed to communicate better with humans instead of just my dog Raven. Maybe a career with animals is my future; destiny perhaps. Or maybe i'm doomed to never make it really far.

Whatever the future holds for me I'll bring it on with open arms. As someone I know said, "Everything happens for a reason." And it's true, me moving back happened for a reason, I just need to move on the path that was thrown at me and hope I don't crash and burn.

~Exxy~

Yippy skipp...Not

Well i've been put into driving classes now...September 18, what joy...NOT.

I don't want to do this, bad enough I have to go back to fucking school again, but I have to do extra learning, BS.

I was hoping if I kept leaving it to the last minute I wouldn't have to do it, it's going to ruin my WoW time since it's on the weekend and all. I won't have enough time to level Wrathy up and all.

I wanted to do riding again but I decide to screw it, I don't have my things to anyways and now that i'm in this 'driving course' I won't be able to. Fuck my fucking life.

And I don't really want to go back to school anymore, really I graduated already and it's not like another year will change anything for me since I didn't get into college this year; while all my friends are going to college now. I'm a failure what can I say.

Can't even get a job in this effing economy. I've been sitting home for the past month and a half now with really not alot to do; and I don't care if I'm just sitting here playing WoW. And I'm not addicted!

But yea this better just be two weekends because if it's any more than that I'm going to be pissed.


~Exxy~

Wild Horses :(

The title doesn't really say it all, but really when does a title say anything much about what i'm about to say to you guys. Well at the moment i'm listening to Wild Horses by Natasha Bedingfield.

It's got this sad yet sweet tune with lyrics that make me remember back in 2003, when I first owned my own horse and took lessons. I've always loved horses but i never got to ride them or own my own horse. Her name was Sally and i'll never forget her...even five years later.

Now my friends should know about this sad tale; only close friends (Phil). I'll talk about it in a minute but right now I want to think of the happy moments i had, happy years riding horses. They may not have been wild horses, but they were the best horses I had ever met and had the pleasure to ride. So here I'll mention each horse that I met, rode and the few that will always have a place in my heart. They taught me a lot.

Now we'll talk about Sally. God I could write forever about her. Let's start off with the fact that she was sick when I got her and I didn't know how sick she was; i was young. Well she had Lamintitis, it's when a bone in the horse's hooves shifts into a painful position and causes pain to the horse, causing them a lot of pain. For three years I had her, and she had her ups and downs. Finally she got really sick and could barely stand up. Now right now i'm going to mention that my family didn't have the big bucks and had to do what we could afford for her. But I do remember the one time I saw her really happy. It was the day the vet came and gave her painkillers to sooth her hurt. It only lasted temporarily but for the first time she was happy. I just wish we had the money to keep her happy all the time. Well after three years I came back from my dad's only to hear that she was going to be put down. When the day came I will admit I was angry. Angry that she couldn't get better, angry that my family couldn't do anything else. I was also blaming myself. After she was gone I swear I hurt for almost a full year before the pain was numbed. But that whole year any mention of Sally and I would have to hide myself away because I'd start crying. Now it's not so bad, but right now; I can feel tears.

Now before Sally, way back, there was Brandy and Sandy; mostly Brandy. She was the first horse to be set on. A chestnut mare that I remember leading around as a toddler and she never hurt me. Whenever I was at the barn I'd want to be put on Brandy's back. I think i was five at the time, hey I can remember peices of my childhood; mostly the most memorable.

Next was Galaxy and Gumdrop; a few years later. i remember how I'd always say that Gumdrop was my brother's pony and Galaxy was mine. They were both young dapple grey geldings; a matching pair. They weren't rideable but hey they were fun to hang around with. These two I couldn't go into the stall with and under their legs (like Brandy and Sandy). They were the last horses before Sally came along.

The first horse I took lessons on was named Lisa. I think she was a lighter chestnut with a long, thick blaze on her face. I learned the basics on her and went on my first trail rides with her, almost fell off at one point:P. She's gone now but she's mentioned here because she started me off.

Now Ara, the first horse I fell off of and the last horse I owned. She was a beautiful Arabian mare; dark bay with a little star on her forehead. I rode her for a long time until I fell off of her one day and switched another horse. Around Christmas time I was told to go to the barn and found her next to Sally in her own stall. Around that time Sally had become more of a companion horse than a pleasure horse so Ara was who I ended up riding for i think five years; sounds correct enough. Sadly I was afraid of her, since I fell off of her when she was running(Cantering for the horse savy people). I worked on my fear for those five years and finally, the last year I had her, I got over my fear and sad goodbye to her and Brie (the horse that came to keep Ara company when Sally was gone). They had gone to a new home and it's one of the reasons I'm here at my dad's now. We couldn't keep them where they were and it took away a reason to say no to moving away. She's happy now, though, in her new home.

Now Brie was the little Arabian Pony mare that I was put on after Ara. She also came to live with us after Sally was gone. I remember her as one bossy little light bay with so many spots on her I thought of her as a reverse appaloosa at times. Well she lived to the beautiful age of 31 years before we got a call saying at her new home with Ara that she was hurt and then put down a while later. I was asked if I wanted to go see her before they put her down and I said no. Then my grandfather said something that I agree with. "I want to remember her as she went up that trailor ramp with her tail in the air." I also want to mention that she was Phil's favourite horse when she came over.

Tempest was another Arabian mare I rode. She was a dark bay like Ara with a large patch of white on her face. I learned to finally Canter on her and face my fears of falling off. She was quite gentle with me and the last memory i have of her was grooming her. She's gone now too, but she was old. I still have a mental picture of her, faint but still there (the same with Sally; Brie I still see clearly).

Sheldon was the drama queen gelding that I rode; first horse I jumped too. May i also mention he was the tallest horse i'd ever seen or ridden too. He was a light bay with a star on his forehead and I loved riding him. He was smooth to ride and a breeze to jump (especially when they were very tiny jumps compared to him). I went to see him when I went to see Ara and Brie before they left for their new home.

Azzie is another horse I loved to ride. He was a spunky boy. A beautiful coloured gelding whom I fell off more times than Ara. But I still got back up on him and continued to ride and jump. He was the last horse I rode in a lesson before I stopped going.

Lucy was a pretty arabian mare; chestnut. She was also a smooth ride, more smooth than Sheldon, with a wonderful canter that I could ride forever at. She was actually the very last horse I rode before I moved. It wasn't a lesson; just a final ride before I said goodbye.

Jake was a red dun I rode when my school had a horse club. He was a six year old gelding who I barrel raced on. It was just for fun but he brought out a love for western riding that I never had before. For the longest time I wanted to barrel race after that; still do ;P.

And any horse I forgot, I can still remember them I just never had a long time to get to know them like the other horses. The ones listed above are only a few of the many I had ridden in my short eighteen years of life. Really if I tried to remember and make a little paragraph of each I'd have to go onto a part two of this blog so i'll just put their names:
Shadow, Apache, Starsky, Jordie, King and I know there are a few others but i'm having trouble remembering names right now; it's late.

So with that I'm going to say goodnight and hopefully you don't make the same mistake I did and give up something you love.

~Exxy~

Gas Attack and Candy Ropes

Well I'm back from a very long absense due to not enough internet memory. At the moment I'm about to open up the best candy ever to exist, Rainbow NERDS Rope! Yeah saw them at the Dollar Store and though, hey haven't had them in a while and bought two (One for my bro and one for me).

Currently I'm at my mom's til Tuesday and I'm going to try and hang out with everyone I know down here to make up for the whole month of not finding friends to hangout with (something I've found to have trouble with alot).

So yesterday we took Sybil, bro's dog, to PetSmart for her training class before buying treats and other things there. Then we went to Walmart and I picked up the Marianas Trench CD, Percy Jackson: The Lightening Theif, and a Wii game called Horse Life Adventures (Shut the fuck up, I'll never be too old for horse games; in my effing blood to be forever tied to horsey stuff).

When I got back I instantly put the game in and played for a bit 'til we had to eat and then played some more. Then today I opened up the movie and watched half of it because we had to go into town and I was offered to drive around town. I'll possibly play the CD later on while I'm playing with my graduation present, a Bamboo digital art tablet. (:D) Yep I got one and I'm having a lot of fun with it; recently working on a horse head.

Well that's all for now, I'm going to finally open the wrapper since I've been typing this whole time; so much has happened.

~Exxy~