I know, I know, I said goodnight a post ago tonight. But I've been listening to some oldies and one song in particular just hit me hard. Alan Jackson's Remember When. A song I listened to after my grandpa passed away, the song I listened to when times were hard, the song I memorized and sang all the time when I was alone.
And sometimes I wish I could go back to then. Being a kid was so much easier than this shit. I didn't understand what was going on at the time with my parents when I was young; i miss the naivety of not knowing.
I see the world today and then I see it back then and want it all to rewind back to that time. Everything just seemed fresher than it does now. Days didn't seem to go by so quickly; just a slow pace was needed.
Back then I knew exactly what I wanted to do with my life, but now i'm doing something totally different. Heh, I remember the night after graduating from elementary school I couldn't get to sleep. All I could think about was how terrifying High school was going to be and at how close adult hood was.
This is where hopefully my post makes more sense and flows better...
I can go even farther back to when I first moved to where I lived for eight years or more. Getting ready for that first day of Grade five in a new school with new people. I wasn't too pleased about the whole process of getting onto a bus and going to school. But the first day wasn't too bad. It took me a few weeks though to figure out who to hang out with and who to avoid, but in the end I made a good friend who has stuck it out since then.
Then on came grade eight grad and then high school. Crushes were created and hearts were broken. High school ended and everyone went their own ways.
But you know what, I'd do it all again if I had the chance. I wouldn't even change a single thing, tweek a single memory. Well, I could do without knowing a certain JB person >.> But nonetheless, my life up until now has been amazing. It may have heart a few times and at times I may have felt down. But that's all just made me into who I am today.
And now that the sob fest is over, i'm going to go and try to watch a movie.
~Squeezy~ aka B
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